My Inklings of Coherence

Meandering to the beat of a different drummer, these are my thoughts. If you are offended or angered by this blog, or feel it is of low-quality, please accept a full refund of your contribution.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Sucked right back in

I'm back.

No, I couldn't stay away long. Couldn't keep quiet. So I'm back.

Hopefully, I've got a better idea of what I want to do in my little corner of cyberspace, and I don't think that includes virtual therapy so I'll be keeping the introspection to a minimum.

I've actually got 2 new blogs that you are welcome to peruse: is pretty self explanatory. I love sports, and I've got plenty to say, and well, it appalls my wife to think I may be one of those nutjobs who spends all afternoon calling in to the sports radio shows, so I'll let this be my voice. Word of warning: when comes calling for me, I will most definitely forget the little people and where it all began. is for everything else. Yeah, believe it or not, I've got my own 2 cents on just about everything. And since I have been accused of being one of the most informed people on the planet, I shouldn't run dry.

So come on by. Sit a spell. Drop a comment or two. If you want to compliment, compliment. If you want to ask, ask. If you want to suggest, suggest. If you want to be ugly, well, I'll just tell your mommy.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Blog in Review

I started this blog for two reasons. The first, and predominant one at the time, was to practice my writing skills and allow the masses to experience my great wit. At the time I fancied myself a great writer and that this would be the jumping off point to articles, columns and that great book that every writer believes he will be completing. I also thought I was one funny guy and that my humor would grab people on the internet in historic proportions. Looking back, I may have been a little off. I can't say that I am especially pleased with the quality of the content on here. The writing is average at best. This blog, and other recent events, are making me realize that I am not quite the skilled scribe that I believed I was. I will continue to try to work on my craft, mainly because this is the profession that I have chosen and it is a little too late to go changing things now, although that is up for debate since no one is banging down my door to pay me for any of this.

The second reason for taking up this space on the internet I have only recent become to realize. It was for attention. For a very long time I have felt disregarded in my life. I often describe it as being the extra or background character in someone else's TV show. Yeah, I have some people around me and have participated in some wacky hijinks, but its always because of someone else. I remember being in middle school and telling my mom that unless I go up to my so-called "friends" or seek them out, I would be completely left out. No one was going to try to find me. And so it has continued. And usually, I just don't think about it enough to get down about it. I even tell myself that I prefer doing things for other people and letting other people have the spotlight because it will make them feel better and then they will like and appreciate me for my sacrifice. Well, that's not generally the case. Usually the "other people" just wind up getting used to me doing things for them and being the center of attention and don't think much of it. If they even notice at all.

So what does this have to do with this blog? Well, I thought that this would be my blog and that it would attract the interest and attention of other people my way. And while I'm not going to sit here and cry because of the lack of "traffic" to my site or the lack of recognition for it, I do realize that that is a pretty lame reason to blog. "Look at me! Look at me!"

I have also become disappointed and frustrated by the direction that I have taken this blog. It began with just ramblings (see the title). Then some very unfortunate things started happening to me and leading me down a not so nice road and I thought, "well, maybe I should use my blog to vent and get things off my chest and out of my head." Looking back on those posts, they sure are whiny. And while I am in a slightly better place internally, posting hasn't really had the cathartic effect I was hoping for. And I hate to think that it was a subconcious attempt at a cry for help, given the responses that they generated.

So, having said all of that, I believe this to be my last post here. At least for a while. I still have some faint thoughts that some of my opinions should be expressed for global consumption, so maybe I return to this forum at some point. Or maybe I make a fresh start somewhere else. Don't know. And frankly, I've got a lot of other things bouncing around in my head that I need to work out first.

So, to the 47 people who have stopped by at one point or another, and the 4 people that seem to stop by regularly, thanks for checking in. If anyone needs me, send an e-mail. Chao pesca'o